if this is it, then what is this?

someone up there really really loves me

…because i’ve been soooo lucky lately.

there is so much good going on my life that sometimes i wonder; how long will all of this last?

because i see so many people around me suffering, so many around me complaining that i am afraid of turning into them someday.

because i am happy now, doesn’t mean i’ll be happy later.

i’m scared. but still happy.